Good evening! It’s 00h40 and I should be asleep!! But I was studying until late and now I can’t sleep!!! Cute!!!!
But while I’m lying here instead of counting ships to help me fall asleep I’m actually listening to the songs I downloaded today… You know, a lot of comebacks have happened recently – I also plan on posting about them don’t wORRY JUST WAIT UNTILL THE END OF NEXT WEEK ONLY THEN IM DONE WITH THIS SHITLOAD OF WORK – as I was saying, I’m here listening to songs I downloaded today. Among them, this ONE SONG from this ONE GROUP I’ve heard of like 6291728273 times but never really cared about listening to their music until their recent comeback – NU’EST. GO CHECK OUT THEIR SONG NOW OMG
Basically I’m having one of those emotional midnight moments when I start ranting about stupid stuff bUT THE POINT IS THE GOD DAMN SONG HAS BEEN ON REPEAT FOR THE PAST LIKE FIFTEEN MINUTES and it’s making me upset bECAUSE I KNOW EXACTLY WHERE THIS IS GOING
It’s aaaaaaalways like this. Every thing starts with one song to which I get severely addicted and I go like two days in a row listening to it on repeat and before I can tell I went from learning their names to knowing their blood tYPE AND FULL BACKGROUND AND IM SO FRUSTRATED WRITING THIS WHILE LISTENING TO THEIR ANGELIC VOICES BECAUSE I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT IM DOING AND SHGSAJBSKSDH I FEEL SO ATTACKED RIGHT NOW THEYRE ATTACKING MY E ARS AMD MY SOUL WITH THEIR VOICES AND HANDSOME FACES AND OVERALL AESTHETIC AND I ONLY RECOGNIZE LIKE TWO OF THEM REN AND MINHYUN MINHYUN REALLY CAUGHT MY EYE BUT REN IS DEADASS BIAS MATERIAL BUT HIS HAIR ON THEIR MV MADE ME SO CONFLICTED BUT HES SO BEAUTIFUL I KEEP WONDERING WHEN HES THE ONE SINGING HOW DO I STOP THIS
here’s a post where I pour in my most true fangirl feels
As you may or may not know – depending on if you follow me on instagram – mY BTS ALBUM RECENTLY ARRIVED (recently being exactly a week ago; also don’t worry, I do plan on writing a full post reviewing the album) AND I GOT YOONGI’S PHOTOCARD AND LIKE I HAD ALSO ORDERED GOT7’S ALBUM AS MY FRIEND’S BDAY GIFT AND SHE GOT JB’S PHOTOCARD AND THEY’RE BOTH SO CUTE ANDBAJS
So basically a few minutes ago I was happily putting Yoongi’s photocard on my bedroom wall (even though the wall’s enormous and the photocard is smaller than my palm) when I suddenly got hit by this big truck called REALITY.
I’m not sure if I’ve said this here yet but it hasn’t even been a year since I got into kpop, though it’s been… woah wait, it’s been exactly 10 months.
(Yes I know the day, short story: EXO had released Call Me Baby pretty recently and it had been trending on Twitter for days and I was like “eh let’s see what’s all the hype about” and I download some of their songs that exact afternoon; I know the day because I was sick by that time and I remember that exactly two days later, on April 20th (it was a Monday) I was rushed to the hospital because I really wasn’t feeling well and it was the first time I had to go there in an ambulance and all and I was kinda scared so I never forgot the date of that day. Since I knew it was two days later I also know the day I got into kpop was on April 18th 2015!
This probably sounded so nonsense.)
Back to the meaning of this: while I was putting Yoongi on my wall I started thinking “Oh my God. Look at you putting a Kpop idol on your wall.” Because I CLEARLY remembering the first time I listened to EXO and kept thinking “This is not so bad but I don’t think I can listen to this. It makes me cringe.” But that was jut because it was something I wasn’t used to listen to. After getting familiar with their voices I instantly started enjoying their music a lot more, not just with EXO but with every kpop idol I usually listen to.
Right now I’m staring at my BTS album and I keep thinking that even on that day when I first downloaded some of EXO’s songs I never thought I would get into Kpop this deep – deep enough to buy a physical album. It’s insane. It all happened so fast, literally within less than a year.
It kind of blows my mind to look at this album and think “I truly adore these guys. They really are idols. My idols. I spent money on this. And I’m so happy to have this that will always remind me of them.” It does blow my mind, simply because I never thought I would reach this point after One Direction (yes, it’s true).
And this post is probably sounding hella sentimental right now but I’m not done yet. There’s something else that I find extraordinary.
Just now, I was opening BTS’ album and going through the pages… The first individual photo to come up is Jin’s. FIRST OF ALL LETS TALK ABOUT HOW HE SEEMS TO BE STARRING AT MY SOUL IN ONE OF THESE PICS I SWEAR I CANT LOOK HIM IN THE EYE AND THIS IS JUST A DAMN PHOTO FFS
But really. I was looking at the photo and thinking “it’s crazy how things are these days. Jin (and well the other boys too but in this case I was looking at Jin), who was born like any other ordinary kid, like I was born, in the exact opposite side of the world… Suddenly I, an ordinary sixteen year old, have this book with their photos and a CD with their voices. It sounds kind of creepy when we put that way, right? But that’s not what I mean. What I mean is, the world is so big, yet so small.
Imagine BTS (and well, any other idol you can think of), being exactly themselves, looks and personality except without their love for music and performing. If they didn’t have that in them, they wouldn’t have became idols and they would have been ordinary young men like any other. Actually, though they are famous, they’re still ordinary people. They’re just like you and me and yet there’s nobody out there with a photobook of me and CD of my voice recorded.
At this point I don’t know if I’m making myself clear anymore because it’s kind of late and I should probably go to sleep.
In conclusion, all I wanted to do with all of this was share with you how mind blowing these simple things are and how lucky I feel to have access to everything out there. Above all, I wanted to share how much Kpop has come to mean to me.
Also, don’t get me wrong when I called BTS “ordinary” I never meant it in a bad way of course. It’s a fact that they are normal human beings like all of us but I did mention how they stand out from the rest of us, they’re amazingly talented, hardworking and have this endless passion for what they do which are alone just some of the reasons to why they deserve all the recognition they have been gaining and even more ❤️
I’m off to bed now! School tomorrow… STARTS AT 10AM DON’T WORRY I ALREADY SET MY ALARM CORRECTLY NOT PLANNING ON WAKING UP TWO HOURS EARLIER AGAIN
So here’s the deal: one of the big big big disadvantages of being a fangirl is having your sleep schedule upside down or no sleep schedule at all. With that most of us teenagers struggle to get out of bed every morning because we spent last night lying to ourselves that we would go to bed early while saying “just one more chapter” “just one more episode” “just one more video” and. so. on. Therefore unfortunate events like what happened to me last Thursday tend to occur.
Everyday I wake up around 6h30AM which is already pretty early but that Thursday, for some reason I don’t know of, I decided to set the alarm for about twenty minutes earlier. When the alarm rang it didn’t really bother me that I was waking up early, I even thought “Well, since I won’t be able to sleep again, I might aswell get up now and start getting ready. At least there’s no way I’ll be late.
I happily got out of bed, went to the bathroom and then to the kitchen to get something for breakfast.
That was when it hit me.
I was savoring some nice fruit when I started thinking “what a great week this one… only two days of classes! Today I even start school at 10AM. Woah… School should start at 10AM everyday………….. wait. School starts at 10AM.” I glanced at the clock and suddenly reality struck me. School didn’t start until 10AM and there I was eating breakfast without a care in the world – at least before drowning in frustration due to have gotten up two hours before the supposed time.
Of course, I went back to bed after finishing breakfast but wasn’t to able to fall asleep until about 30 minutes before having to wake up again…
On the other hand, it’s Wednesday today and I haven’t been able to wake up in time this week. What a contrast.
Damn sleep schedules.
Tell me, any fangirls out there struggling with the same?
Carnival was this week! Meaning… no school untill Thursday! WOHOO
Though I had (and still have) loads of homework, stuff to study and projects to finish weekend is resting day so I went to Belém this time in the afternoon.
These posts may or may not sound like I’m trying to promote Lisbon’s tourism but I honestly don’t really care. I’m simply sharing with you stuff I do and places I visit!
There’s not necessarily need to promote tourism in this country honestly any area with a monument that is located near Tejo River is always crowded with tourists. During only an hour and a half I heard german, french, spanish, chinese, english and evEN kOREAN. I swear I passed by more foreigners than locals.
Belém is one of richest areas in the capital for various reasons. Besides being where most embassies and Presidente da Republica’s official residence are located Belém also contains three historical monuments, the planetarium, a botanic garden and the worldwide famous Pastéis de Belém. Bear in mind from all these places it’s possible to admire a beautiful sigh of the Tejo River!
It’s fun to go there every now and then but it becomes less and less exciting when you live near it and go there pretty often during your whole life. However, it’s still nice go there for a nice stroll on the weekend!
I leave you with the beautiful end-of-day sky in Belém! It’s definitely somewhere to visit if you ever come to Portugal!
Have you ever been to Belém? If yes what, did you like it?
Good afternoon dear reader!
Not going to lie – this post was never planned and it will probably come out quite random for some of you because Jungkook isn’t blonde anymore and hasn’t been for like half year already. However everyday when I log on wordpress I check my blog’s statistics to kind of give me a heads up on what you guys read the most on my blog and I’m telling you it’s insane how often people search for ‘blonde jungkook’ and consequently my SO LONG, BLONDE KOOKIE post is the probably one of the most read here. Based on that I decided to leave this post dedicated to all of you who want to look at blonde Kookie once again! Enjoy~
Believe it or not it was pretty hard for me to write this post because I had no clue how I was going to put into words how this damn prologue made me feel – and we can’t forget the MV for RUN… but for now let’s stick to the prologue.
After I NEED U came out with the rest of the mini album 화양연화 The Most Beautiful Moment In Life, Pt. 1 we were aware that there was going to be a follow up – a part 2 however this prologue was dropped on all ARMYs like an atomic bomb in the form of an emotional roller-coast.
Disregarding of all theories on the true story behind I NEED U, this prologue was quite helpful to clear every thing up and actually understand the story behind this concept.
Only 0.3 seconds in the video and I was already emotional because of Taehyung’s scene. Without a doubt this scene is a direct follow up of I NEED U.
I don’t think many people realized this but this concept was great for showing each members’ acting skills – which are quite impressive.
The main reason why I got emotional while watching wasn’t necessarily due to the sad side of the video (because before the very end we had no clue what was still to come) but actually due to all the happy scenes. This may sound like nonsense to some people but when I care about someone it really moves me to just see they’re happy. Even though this was just a video it actually made me happy to see them having fun with all the members while doing simple things like hanging together or taking photos – creating memories or going somewhere they’ve never been to together, just being happy.
And then BAM
Alright, once again there’s no doubt of what happened – Tae jumped, tried to… yanno… take his own life (it kind of bothers me to say the actual word I don’t know why).
My heart broke a little on this scene. Just look at how Tae finally glanced at his hyung 😦
As if it wasn’t enough we still got this bonus scene where we conclude that Jin never took that photo with the other boys! Awesome!1! Right. In. The. Feels.
So here’s my theory up to this point (I must warn you this isn’t really based on other theories online because I didn’t ready any it’s just the most decent conclusion to which I got after discussing it with my friends): in the I NEED U MV we were able to see their life’s go downhill except for Jin in fact it was quite uncertain what had actually happened to him but at the time I just thought he died like the others – which would make Tae the only survivor. Turns out Tae took his own life too so Jin was the only survivor – the last scene when he’s the only one on the Polaroid is also a proof of that.
The reason why it’s so hard to make up a theory for the story behind this concept is because the scenes in I NEED U, Prologue and RUN aren’t necessarily organized chronologically. From my point of view what I concluded after watching the prologue at first was that the rest of the boys all died and Jin was left alone – which we now know isn’t the truth. But then I started wondering what the scene of Jin in the bedroom with the petals and all represented because that scene was so angelic and all it didn’t seem be happening in real life like the other members’ scenes so I thought maybe Jin is the one who died… But I gave it a little more thought later and it made zero sense so I discarded the option but well looks like I was right…?
Friendly reminder this isn’t my final theory of the whole story, I’ll write about that on my post about RUN!